trust yourself

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 In life, we meet lots of people; some win our hearts and some our life. Some become our friends for life; our soulmates. Some teach us how to be enemies, how to fight and win, and how to be a hypocrite and rude. Every person shows you something or other, but I think the most valuable lessons are the ones taught while people back stab you. The things you learn when you are cheated on only makes you stronger and more mature. Some people come to you as well-wishers while the ones who act as though they care about you the most, are the ones who talk about you, back stab you, and gossip about you. They are the only people who try to finish you. But while they are doing this, they forget they are doing you a favor. They are helping you grow stronger and more mature. They teach you whom and what to trust. They teach you the most valuable lesson of life.

TRUST YOURSELF AND BE VERY CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST…NO ONE CAN EVER LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOURSELF…NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU DESERVE ANY LESS…NO ONE IS BETTER THAN YOU…DO NOT ALWAYS TRUST THOSE WHO ARE TRYING TO GET CLOSER TO YOU, BECAUSE EVEN THE SHADOWS WILL LEAVE YOU WHEN IT GETS DARK…

I deserve to be love back

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 I have a heart brimming with love for someone who can love me back. I can’t live with the pain of unrequited love. I can’t spend my entire life crying for someone who could not love me back. I deserve someone who I don’t have to work so hard for. I deserve someone who doesn’t make me crave for affection. I deserve someone who I don’t have to continuously beg and convince to love me back. I deserve someone who wants to stay with me forever. I deserve a once in a lifetime kind of love. I deserve someone who can be physically, emotionally and soulfully intimate with me…

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 A married person must be very cautious about having a friend of the opposite sex. Ideally your spouse should be your best friend. Pouring out your heart and sharing your emotions and feelings with someone of the opposite sex other than your spouse is emotional unfaithfulness; it displaces your spouse from her rightful position in your heart. It creates an emotional distance between you and your spouse. Your spouse doesn’t have to compete for your emotional attention with anyone. Most sexual encounters outside marriage are preceded by casual innocent friendships and inappropriate emotional intimacy. Safeguard your marriage; honor and respect your spouse by cutting all inappropriate friendships and intimate ties with people of the opposite sex. You belong only to your spouse. “The two shall become one flesh.” Genesis 2:24. “Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.” Mark 10:9.

i am done

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 I am done with crying. I am done with trying. I am not tired of loving you but I am tired of trying to make you love me back.I am tired of these long chases which lead me to nowhere. I am tired of waiting for a rainbow to shine through us. I will never stop loving you but yes I will stop running after you in circles. I will stop waiting for you to come back to me. I will stop waiting for your calls and your text messages. I will try to live without you but I will never stop loving you because a woman cannot love another man in her life if she has loved someone from the depths of her heart and soul. And one day when I am gone forever from this world and I lie in my grave I don’t want you to come with flowers and shed tears for me because you could have loved me and made me smile when I was with you. You could have given me flowers and wiped my tears when I used to wait for you endlessly.

LEAVE

 Please leave

I’ve had enough
Take off your mask
I know what’s up

You thought I was stupid
You thought I was blind
But I have news for you
I saw through you the whole time

I gave you some time 
To see if you would change
Because that’s what I do
But you remained the same

I did my part
But it wasn’t enough
Now I’m done with this charade
You were never in Love

Now I want you to leave
Don’t try to come back
Because all the Love I gave to you
You just threw in the trash

life is precious don’t waste it

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 I’ve been through hell and back countless times. I’ve had my share of pain that I thought would take a lifetime to get over. But I rose above it all, both stronger and wiser. The pain that I endured had taught me so much that I have to look at it as a blessing because the bad times will ultimately lead to something better if you just let it. You have to continue hoping, believing, and have faith that things will work out for the best. Think positive because negative thoughts will only weigh you down. Our mind can keep us trapped in the past and the pain. For every day we spend in sadness, we lose another day of happiness. We can’t get those days back. Believe me, I know. I lost fifteen years in depression. What a waste of precious time. I only succeeded in destroying my life. I wish I could go back and relive that time differently knowing what I know now. That’s why it’s so important to take care of yourself. I know howdifficult that can be, but I won’t ever allow myself to go back to that state of mind again. All those years wasted, and no matter how I felt it was never going to change a thing. A valuable lesson, life is way too short. I realized that wallowing in my sorrows for what seemed like forever was a very selfish way to be. Other people out there needed me. Once I started listening and helping other individuals who were hurt just like me, I healed. The best thing is not to sit around idle. Find something to do that you enjoy. Get out with your friends. Help your friends or others. Focusing on other things will keep your mind busy, and try staying active, you will eventually feel much better…

if you love her, trust her

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 You can’t expect a woman to love you if you keep spying on her. How is she supposed to trust you when you don’t trust her? A relationship must have respect, honesty, and faith. When you keep looking for reasons to spy or check up on her, or question her all the time about the people she meets, it makes it difficult to stay in a relationship like that for very long. Feeling a little jealous and possessive sometimes is fine, but you can’t keep an eye on her all the time. You can’t always look at her with suspicion in your eyes. A woman wants to be respected and trusted. If she is, then she will respect and trust you in return. Love is all about trust, honesty, and respecting one another. It’s not just fulfilling each other’s needs. Don’t make her life miserable by doubting or spying on her. If you are not happy in the relationship, then just leave.

iniwan ng walang dahilan

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 “Iniwan ng Walang dahilan”
Sa apat na sulok ng aking kwarto

Katahimikan ang syang namumuo

Ang dating ikaw at ako

Ay bigla na lang naglaho

Tanging naiwan nalang ang salitang ako
Paano nasira ng ganito?

Ang relasyong iningatan ko

Ang relasyong pinahalagahan ko

Ang relasyon, na kung saan inalay ko ang buong buhay ko
Ngayon, isa-isa kong ginugunita

Ang ating mga alaala

Na nakasulat sa bawat pahina ng aklat ng pagmamahalan nating dalawa
Hindi ko mapigilan

Ang mga tumatakbo sa aking isipan

Mga katanungan na wala pa ring kasagutan

‘Pagkat di ko lubusang maintindihan

Ano nga ba ang iyong dahilan?

Dahilan, para ako iyong iwan
Saan ako nagkulang?

Hindi pa ba ako sapat?

Bakit hanggang dito na lang?

Hindi ba ako karapat-dapat?
Ilang buwan palang tayong magkasama mahal ko

Pero, sadyang tadhana ay mapaglaro –

At tayo’y pinaglayo

Relasyong inakala kong hanggang dulo

Nalihis ng takbo
Oras-oras, segu-segundo at minu-minuto

Kung silipin ko ang cellphone ko

Umaasang makikita mo ang mensahe ko sayo

Hinahangad na makausap ka sa konting panahon na ilalaan mo

Gusto ko lang naman itanong sayo

Ang mga dahilan mo

Dahilan para bitawan ako
Paulit-ulit na gumugulo

Sa isipan ko

Mga katagang binigkas mo ” hindi na kita mahal, nagsasawa na ako, palayain mo na ako.”
Nang marinig ko ito

Nanikip ang dibdib ko

Tila mundo ko ay biglang gumuho

Unti-unting pinapatay ng mga katagang ito ang puso ko

Na para bang hinihiwa ng kutsilyo hanggang sa magkapira-piraso
Bakit mo nga ba nasabi ito?

Kailan lang masaya pa tayo

Batid ko naman na maligaya ka sa tabi ko

Batid ko naman na mahal na mahal mo din ako –  

‘pagkat ramdam ko ito

Pero mahal ko bakit bigla kang nagbago?

Nagkulang ba ako?
Sa pakawari ko

Ibinigay ko lahat sayo

Lahat ng meron ako

Lahat inalay ko

Lahat ginawa ko

Lahat sinakripisyo ko

Dahil lahat ng ito ay para sayo

Pero batid ko , hindi pala sapat ang lahat ng ito para manatili ka sa piling ko
Paano ko pa ipagpapatuloy ang paglalakbay?

Kung wala ng hahawak sa aking mga kamay

Paano ako titinging ng diretso sa pangarap ko?

Kung ang kaisa-isang pangarap na tinitignan ko ay naglaho

Paano ako ngingiti sa mga problema ko?

Kung ang dahilan ng pag-ngiti ko ay lumayo

Paano ako sasabay sa ikot ng mundo?

Kung ang ikot ng relasyong ito ay nahinto

Paano pa ako gigising sa umaga?

Kung sa pagdilat ng aking mata kasabay ng pagtanggap sa katotohan na talagang WALA KA NA!
Mga pangako mo

Na napako

Mga plano mo

Na nilipad ng hangin sa kabilang ibayo

Hindi ko dapat pinanghawakan ang mga ito

Para hindi sana nasasaktan ng ganito
Salitang hindi kita iiwan

Isa palang kabaliwan

Hindi ko dapat pinaniwalaan

Pagkat di mo kayang patunayan
Pero kahit ako’y nasaktan mo

Ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko

Ikaw pa rin ang gusto hawakan ng mga kamay ko

Ikaw pa rin ang gustong kayakap ng mga bisig ko

At IKAW pa rin ang nilalaman nitong puso ko
Ang sakit.. Sakit!
Sa larawan nalang kita masisilayan

Bawat araw, ikaw ang gusto matanaw

Bawat musika na aking mapapakinggan

Bumabalik ako sa hinagpis ng nakaraan

Nakaraan.. Kung paano mo ko sinukuan
Minsan natutuliro

Akala ko kumakatok ka sa aking pinto

Pero guni-guni ko lang pala ito

Iniisip ko na lang “Ano pang rason para pumunta ka rito.”
Hindi ko sinasara ang pinto ng puso ko

Sa posibilidad na bumalik sa pahina ng dating TAYO

Dahil hanggang ngayon umaasa pa rin ako
Umaasa ako na , isang araw magtetext ka

Umaasa ako na , isang araw tatawag ka

Umaasa ako na ,  isang araw makakausap ka

At UMAASA AKO NA , ISANG ARAW MULI KANG MAKAKASAMA
Nakakalungkot isipin na sa pagkakataong ito

Hindi ko na mahahagkan ang mga labi mo

Hindi ko na maririnig ang boses mo

Hindi ko na masisilayan pa ang mga ngiti mo
Pinagtagpo.. Pinaglayo

Ngayon hindi ko na alam kung saan patungo

Kung pwede lang hilingin sayo na – 

“ibalik mo ang puso pagkat dala-dala mo ito sa paglisan mo.”

Sana maari mangyari ito

Pero batid ko na imposible na ito.
Puso kong nagkapira-piraso

Kailan kaya mabubuo?

Mga bakas na naiwan mo

Paano kaya maglalaho sa isipan ko?
Bawat hakbang ko

Tinatahak ang proseso ng paglimot ko sayo

Mga alaala na nakatala sa pahina ng aklat nating dalawa ay hindi na mabubuklat pa. Sana bukas magsimula ang isang kabanata na may pamagat na ” Tanggap ko nang Wala ka na”.
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30 hrs

30 Hours After We Separated And I Am Already Missing You
I swear I never thought that, one day, I’d be writing about you. It’s even weird that I feel this way — feel like I lost a major part of me when we separated ways — but I do. For over five months of almost seeing you every single day, somehow you made a special place in my heart. I took the time that I spent with you for granted because on the surface of my mind, I knew you’d just be one of those people that I would meet temporarily — no strings attached. 
But there’s something in the bond that we created that made a long lasting impact in all parts of me. Maybe it’s the fact that I easily declared to myself that you weren’t so bad to share my ordinary, most usual, vulnerable moments with. I mean, you were fairly okay. And at some point I became so glad that you were there when I was having a difficulty sleeping. 
I wasn’t the type anymore who would open up to somebody quickly. It was you who did the talking most of the time. You were chatty every time we hit a conversation. I knew your personal details and I wondered whether you were thinking why I wasn’t sharing mine too. But during the times when I had emotional breakdowns, my mouth would open and words came flooding the floor between us, climbing to your bed and into your ears. 
It was so easy to talk to you. Like I didn’t get the chance to be awkward. Like I never had the opportunity to backle up and swallow back my words. Of course I’m never going to romanticize and make it seem like everything was perfect when we were having discussions, because, sometimes, I caught you looking down while I was talking and showing some sort of disinterest — but I’d like to see the good side in every situation. Having you around me was enough. 
There are so many things that I wished happened so differently. Like, I wish we made our last week together more memorable. I wish I didn’t hate you when you decided to be loud at 12 am. I wish I hadn’t make you feel how upset I was. And I wish I didn’t sleep over the sound of your voice while you were in mid-sentence — but you knew how damn tired I was, so I bet you understood. 
I think the bottomline of this is that I truly miss you. But not in the, “Oh my god I think I’m in love with him and I miss him” — al though it sounds like it. No. No. No. I am positive few days or months from now, this feeling would be irrelevant. I think that my leaving happened so quickly and I never had the proper chance and enough time to say goodbye to you. I never had the chance to get to know you more. I never had the chance to exchange valuable contact details with you. But mostly, I never had the chance to say thank you because you’re the best roommate that I had so far. 
I miss you because you respected everything about me — my time, my silence, my privacy, my ugliness, my sassiness. I probably won’t be seeing you ever again and I’m okay with that. You being part of my life — even for a short period of time — is yet another reminder for me to cherish all the people that I come across and build good relationships with them. 
The journey that I had for the last twelve months has been wonderful because of you too. I am so happy that I was beside you when I decided to put an end in one chapter of my life, and be totally ready to move forward, and never, ever, look back. 
Written by: Ac

I can’t force you

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I Can’t Force You To Love Me
I can’t ask you to stay in my life when all you ever want is to leave. I can’t ask you to say, “I love you too” when you don’t really want to mean it. I can’t make you miss me when my name doesn’t really cross your mind. I can’t make you share the whole parts of yourself when there are so many things you’re hiding from me. 
I understand that I’m not the one you want to end up with. And whatever I do, I’m still not the kind of person you’re dreaming to be in a relationship with — and maybe that’s okay. Maybe time will come and I’ll be able to get over you. I’ll be able to fully accept that you’re only meant to stay in a chapter of my story. 
It’s heartbreaking to know that you don’t feel the same way but I can’t force you to like me. There’s nothing that I can do to make you want me. All I can do is to try to be happy for you, for both of us. And hope that by doing so, I’ll be able to get the peace that I need. 
I can’t force you to appear in my story until the end of time. But that doesn’t mean I should stop looking for someone else. That doesn’t mean I should stop hoping for a love that I deserve. Because al though you’re not the one who’s right for me, one day, someone will come into my life and will make me realize why you’re not the one who stayed. 
Written by: Ac