Mr. right

I ​never wanted a fairy tale kind of romance… and I certainly never dreamed of a prince charming coming for me on a white horse. All I’ve ever wanted is to be loved truly and honestly. I just want to be taken care of… I want my man’s attention and time… I want him to hold me whenever I am falling apart… I want to share my dreams and my passion with him… I want him to stand beside me whenever l need him… I want him to fight the world for me if ever I should need him to… I want him to be my courage and strength… I want my man to understand me; my feelings, my emotions and my mood swings… In return I would promise to give my 100% to him… All I want is to find an ordinary man with same needs that I have and I would promise to love him like no one has ever loved him before…

Almost relationship

I never thought I could get myself into an ‘almost relationship’, one that starts out fast, and ends fast. And I never thought that an ‘almost relationship’ could also break my heart.
The thing about ‘almost relationships’ is that there is potential for an actual relationship. It could bloom into one, right? And that’s the exact downfall about it. You keep hoping and praying that it’s going to turn into something beautiful. You keep thinking that it will until he texts you that he has changed his mind.
You keep thinking that it’ll turn into a love story, until he really does change his mind and walks out.

I was positive it was going to work out with this guy. I got giddy when I saw him. My heart beat out of my chest when I was with him, and I felt breathless in his presence. I introduced him to my friends. I slept over at his place. I told him my deepest secrets. I kissed him like I could only kiss a boyfriend. I gladly, let him walk into my life.
And I never expected him to walk out.

You never expect people to let you down when you feel strongly about them. You never expect yourself to fall for someone who has the audacity to do that to you. But sometimes, people blindside you.
People change their minds in a day. People walk out. People leave.

I thought it was my fault, truth be told. It seemed like he had done a 360 degree turn. One day he was kissing me and telling me I was beautiful, and the next he was saying goodbye with no remorse. I thought it was me that was the problem. Could I have done something to change his mind? Could I have said something wrong?
But it wasn’t my fault at all. It was his. He wasn’t ready. And he found another pretty little thing to play with soon after. 
With ‘almost relationships’, there are always going to be questions. But it’s not your fault if it goes awry. If he walks out, it isn’t you. It isn’t what you said or what you did. It’s just him. It’s his issue and his loss.
‘Almost relationships’ can be incredibly heartbreaking.

Even more so than a breakup from a significant other. Why? Because it can happen suddenly, without warning. And it can end badly. Usually, more often that not, it’s going to end badly.
Don’t put yourself through it. Don’t give your heart to someone who isn’t ready. Don’t let an ‘almost relationship’ break your heart. Don’t welcome someone into your life, without even asking him what he wants or what he sees in his future. I made the mistake of not asking. I made the mistake of falling. I made the mistake of trusting someone, who I thought would never want to break me. Turns out, I guess I didn’t know him well enough.
People do shitty things. And it doesn’t mean that they are bad people. It doesn’t mean that they don’t have hearts. It just means that they sadly were on a different page.
They weren’t ready for the light you shined so brightly. They weren’t ready for your brilliance.

It will sting when they leave you. It’s going to knock the wind out of you, darling. That’s the thing about ‘almost relationships’. They always will knock you down.

Dear Someone, 
It could’ve been us. It could’ve been me right next beside you talking about our plans for the night. It could’ve been you I am venting all my thoughts with, no matter how good or bad it is.  
We were everything I could’ve wanted. And you know that, too. 
We both know we don’t belong to each other, too, yet something about knowing it makes me wish we did. There are so many reasons why we couldn’t be, but I really wish there were some flaws against these reasons that I could use to just make you change your mind and make you realize that it is with me where you really belong.  
But I never did anyway. You want to make me say yes and no all at the same time.  
And we all know why, right? You were always always busy running after her. You think of her, even when I was the one who is in front of you. You never stopped stalking her on Facebook. You never even have any single thought of deleting your photos together on your phone, even your messages through texts and messenger. You intently slip her name in almost every conversation that we have, just so we can talk about her all over again and again and again. You say you’re going to move on from her. But you never did, just never. And you and I, you just made it clear, that we could never happen. 
While everyone believes we really belong for each other, I remained frustrated. Because I know beyond those smiles you give me whenever you see me get annoyed by your silly jokes, or your never ending questions whenever I’m going somewhere you are not with that seems to go on forever till I get pissed off, your constant reminders of taking good care of myself, and our continuous exchange of good morning and good night texts that gets us wherever until we conclude it with our good night texts, I know you will never see me the way you did with her. 
So please don’t mess with me anymore. I know you still love her, and I know I’m only here for you to help you get through the day of not being able to accept the reality that you really never belonged to her, too, in the first place. Don’t play pretend of liking me when we definitely know you’re not.  
P.S. Feelings aren’t playthings and so am i

Basura

BASURA 
(SPG)
Disclaimer: Hindi ko gustong maging pacool dito or masabihan na super hero. Wala ako dito para umani ng mga papuri. Hindi ako mahilig magbasa ng comments, wala rin akong pakialam sa feedbacks niyo at all. Anon ako, walang makakaalam ng identity ko. Pero sana talaga mapost ‘to para maging aware din ang mga babae na may mga ganitong klase ng lalake. Sorry for the bad words. Kung maselan, wag nang basahin. 
May gusto lang akong iparating sa mga kapwa ko lalaki. Mga pre, bro, tol, brad, alam kong marami kayong maguguilty dito. Para lang ‘to sa mga gumagawa ng ganitong kabalbalan.
Gusto ko lang malaman niyo na t@ngina niyo, hindi niyo ikinagwapo o ikinacool yang pagiging Kiss and Tell niyo! Daig niyo pa mga chismosa niyong kapitbahay sa kanto. Hindi ikinalaki ng mga etits o itlog niyo yang pagkukwento ng mga pribadong bagay na ginagawa niyo ng mga girlfriend/side chick niyo sa mga barkada niyo para mag-pabibo. Ikukuwento mo kung paano mo ginamit, nilaspag, ibinasura, gaano kaluwag, size ng s*s*, and all. Oo girls, sad to say, nag eexist yung mga ganitong klase ng animal. Akala mo yung babae ang naging basura sa ginawa mo? Ikaw ang basura, g@go. Matuto kang rumespeto sa babae bago gawin ng ibang lalaki yan hindi man sa kapatid o pinsan mong babae, kundi sa anak mo.
Hindi man sayo ang balik, asahan mong sa mga mahal mo sa buhay. Karma na ang hahatol sa mga kagaya mong gamol.
Mga barkada ko noong ganito, tinalo ko lahat, mga kanser ng lipunan eh. Mahirap ng mahawa sa mga ganitong klase ng t@e. Thankful ako ngayon na hindi shithead mga bago kong barkada, malayo ang pag-iisip sa mga nauna. 
Ingat din, girls!

Go for it

Sometimes  you just got to do it. You just got to take that one hell of a step and risk it all. Sometimes stepping out of your comfort zone means growing and becoming better. I know sometimes change is scary. Because things might not be as what it is used to be. But maybe that’s what you need. You need things to not be what it used to be anymore. You need things to change. You need life to change. You need the change despite it’s given uncertainties.
This what makes life interesting and worthy of living. It’s the new people you will meet. It’s the new job you will have. It’s the new places you will visit. It’s the new lessons you will learn. It’s the new perspective in life you will cherish.
Of course like any starters, the first phase of change will not be easy. Adjustments will be hard. But you will get through it. You will survive that phase like you always do. So don’t be afraid to risk it. Don’t be afraid to lose some people along the way. Don’t be afraid to let go of your current job. Don’t be afraid to move to the next city. Don’t be afraid to date that person. Don’t be afraid to open your heart. Just don’t be afraid to do new things. Don’t be stagnant in life. Keep moving. Embrace change and just live life.

​LIHAM NG ISANG GINANG PARA SA KANYANG ASAWA, MABUHAY ANG AFP

LIHAM NG ISANG GINANG PARA SA KANYANG ASAWA, MABUHAY ANG AFP

Sa bawat oras na aalis ka ng bahay,  natatakot ako,  nandun yung takot na baka yun na ang huling yakap at halik ko sayo.  Parang dinudurog ang puso ko sa tuwing humakbang ka papalayo.  Ayaw kitang tingnan pero hindi ko mapigilan,  pero sa kaisipan ko ” kung pwede dito ka na lang. Wag ka ng umalis” pero isasagot mo naman sakin,  ” Sundalo ako,  may sinumpaan,  para din naman sa inyo etong ginagawa ko.”
Iniintindi kita,  pilit kong tinatatak sa isip ko na , oo para sa amin ang ginagawa mo,  pero pano na kung katulad ng iba,  mauuna ka din sa langit?  Kakayanin ko kaya??

Ngayon pa lang kumakabog na ang dibdib ko parang sasabog.  Ang hirap pala talagang maging asawa mo.

Kailangan na maging matapang dahil yun ang expectations ng iba sa amin,  kaming mga misis ay matatapang,  matapang sa hamon ng buhay, na kung darating ang araw na hindi na kami babalikan ay mairaos at mapalaki namin ng maayos ang mga anak namin. 
Kung alam mo lang gaano ako umiiyak at nasasaktan sa tuwing wala ka,  pinipigilan ko ang aking mga luha sa harapan ng mga anak mo kahit minsan punong-puno na ako. May mga panahon na gustong-gusto kitang makausap,  gusto kitang makita at mayakap pero wala ka,  sinusuot ko na lang ang mga damit mong pinagbihisan.  Sa mga anak natin ako humuhugot ng lakas lalo na sa tuwing may nababalitaan ako tungkol sa mga katropa mo,  nandun yung kirot at pangamba,  na baka mangyari din sayo ang nangyari sa kanila.  

Natatakot ako…natatakot ako na baka isang araw kahit anino mo hindi ko na makikita. 

Natatakot ako na balang araw baka tanungin ako ng mga anak mo kung bakit wala ka na,  hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko silang sagutin at harapin. 
Kaya sana kung maari,  pag-ingatan mo ang iyong sarili,  kahit linggo,  buwan at taon tayong hindi magkita ng personal,  kakayanin ko,  malaman ko lang na buhay ka.  Umuwi kang buhay, wag na malamig na bangkay. 

At kung namimilegro ka,  isipin mo lang na magkasama tayong dalawa,  dahil kasama ka palage sa mga dasal ko. Sasamahan kita sa laban mo,  maging matapang ako para sa yo at sa mga anak natin dahil asawa mo ako,  ASAWA AKO NG MAGITING NA SUNDALO. 
(PCCTO: ASL)

​Effective Ways To Let Go Of Someone You Love

Effective Ways To Let Go Of Someone You Love
1. Delete and throw away every single thing that will remind you of that person.

Every picture, gift, conversation and even contact number. You must block his/her social media accounts. It’s not an act of bitterness; it’s an act of helping yourself out. It will help you to stop yourself from checking him/her every time and make you realize that it’s all over. That you’re all alone right now. It will be the first and hardest step of letting go because you got used to doing all these things before. There will be times that you’ll get tempted to reread and reminisce, but in order to forget, you must delete. Learn to live and be happy again without that person. Reformat your whole system, but this time, without his/her presence.
2. Be stronger than your emotions.

Everything starts in the mind. Don’t let things around you influence you to dwell in the past. Empty your mind. Don’t let your emotions control your day. Take responsibility. Start your day with a little motivation that you won’t think of him/her for the rest of your day. If you decided to move on, make a plan and then stick to it every single time. Divert your attention to things that won’t remind you of him/her. Create and find your own source of happiness. Make yourself busy and when you’re alone, pray. It can help you a lot. There’s no trick in moving on, but if you learn how to be stronger and control your emotions, you’ll get over it sooner than you thought.
3. Accept.

We all know that it’s an act of unloading all your emotional baggage you’re carrying all this time. But it’s not an easy process to forget and accept everything because it’s the most painful stage of healing and it doesn’t happen overnight. So, give yourself time to grieve and feel your feelings. Embrace the pain. Remember, if you can fall in love with someone who’s completely wrong for you, imagine how hard you can fall for someone who is perfect for you. Maybe this person didn’t love or treat you as you deserved, but someone else will. Use the situation as a learning experience for you. You still have a lot to learn about life and yourself. Stop regretting, asking questions and making thoughts, it will just hinder you from moving on. You’re all alone and it’s the perfect time to rebuild yourself. Reconnect with the people around you. Create new memories. Surround yourself with positivity. Accept the fact that everything has been already over. You can’t fix it anymore. You’ll never be the same as before, but it’s okay. Forgive him. Forgive yourself and keep moving.
4. Know that you will feel the same pain every night if you still choose to be alone and if you don’t help yourself to move on.

Don’t be afraid to continue things that you do even if it can remind you of him or her. Don’t be afraid to listen to your favorite music even though you can hear him/her singing it in front of you. The world won’t adjust just because he/she left you. Life won’t stop just because you’re hurt. Get used to the pain and live by yourself again like what you’re doing before he/she came into your life as if he/she never existed. It’s okay to cry, but don’t make it last a lifetime. Don’t dwell too much on the past because you are not living there anymore. Forgive yourself and accept everything.
Remember, life is a race and it’s okay to rest for a while, but in order to get into the finish line, you must stand up and start to run again. Always look on the brighter side of every situation. Get ready because greater things are coming your way.
Be free. Run. Explore, let go. 
💌 

A real relationship means no lie

Honesty and truthfulness are the foundations of a strong relationship. Never try to impress your partner with fabricated stories or white lies. To have a strong, true and lasting relationship you have to be utterly honest and sincere about who you are without hiding behind a mask. If you want someone to love for who you are, you have to show them who that person is first… A real relationship must be built on truth

Ldr

LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP

• Hindi mo siya mayakap.

• Hindi mo siya malambing.

• Hindi mo siya maalagan pag may sakit siya.

• May mga bagay na hindi agad maayos kasi kumplikado.

• Nakakapraning.

• Wala kang magawa kapag namimiss mo siya.

• Gusto mo siyang makasama pero hindi pwede kasi malayo.

• Hindi mo maiwasang magduda kasi hindi mo siya nakakasama.

• Nakakamatay kapag namimiss mo siya.

• Kahit ilang litro ng luha ang iiyak mo hindi kaagad siya makakarating kapag gusto mo siyang makapiling.

• Hindi mo siya masasamahan sa mga lakad niya.

• Kapag monthsarry or anniversarry niyo sa mga net working sites nalang kayo madalas magcelebrate. Yes, ganito ang LDR. But more than the distance, more than the longing l, more than the affection you are missing, You will realize how lucky you are that there is someone who can love you from a distance. That there is someone who is brave enough to stand for you and fight for you even if you can’t always be together. That there is someone who is hoping big time to be with you someday. That there is someone who loves you truthfully even if you are away. 💕💪
#kapitLang
Punkz

Precisely

We want a second coffee cup in our Instagrams of lazy Saturday mornings, another pair of shoes in our artsy pictures of our feet. We want a Facebook official relationship every one can like and comment on, we want the social media post that wins #relationshipgoals. We want a date for Sunday morning brunch, someone to commiserate with during the drudge of Mondaze, a Taco Tuesday partner, someone to text us good morning on Wednesday. We want a plus one for all the weddings we keep getting invited to (how did they do it? How did they find their happily ever after?). But we are the generation who doesn’t want a relationship.
We swipe left in hopes of finding the right person. We try to special order our soulmate like a request on Postmates. We read 5 Ways to Know He’s Into You and 7 Ways to Get Her to Fall For You, in hopes of being able to upcycle a person into a relationship like a Pinterest project. We invest more time in our Tinder profiles than our personalities. Yet we don’t want a relationship.
We “talk” and we text, we #Snapchat and we sext. We hangout and we happy hour, we go to coffee and grab a beer – anything to avoid an actual date. We private message to meet up, we small talk for an hour only to return home and small talk via text. We forgo any chance of achieving real connection by mutually playing games with no winner. Competing for “Most Detached”, “Biggest Apathetic Attitude”, and “Best at Being Emotionally Unavailable”, what we end up actually winning is “Most Likely to Be Alone”.
We want the façade of a relationship, but we don’t want the work of a relationship. We want the hand holding without the eye contact, the teasing without the serious conversations. We want the pretty promise without the actual commitment, the anniversaries to celebrate without the 365 days of work that leads up to them. We want the happily ever after, but we don’t want to put the effort in the here and now. We want the deep connection, while keeping things shallow. We long for that world series kind of love, without being willing to go to bat.
We want someone to hold our hand, but we don’t want to put the power to hurt us in their hands. We want cheesy pick up lines, but we don’t want to be picked up… for that involves the possibility of being set down. We want to be swept off our feet, yet at the same time remaining safely, independently, standing on our own. We want to keep chasing the idea of love, but we don’t want to actually fall into it.
We don’t want relationships – we want friends with benefits, #Netflix and chill, nudes on Tinder. We want anything that will give us the illusion of a relationship, without being in an actual relationship. We want all the rewards and none of the risk, all of the payout and none of the cost. We want to connect – enough, but not too much. We want to commit – a little, but not a lot. We take it slow: we see where it goes, we don’t label things, we just hang out. We keep one foot out the door, we keep one eye open, and we keep people at arm’s length – toying with their emotions but most of all toying with our own.
When things get too close to being real, we run. We hide. We leave. There’s always more fish in the sea. There’s always another chance at finding love. There’s just such a little chance of keeping it these days…
We hope to swipe right into happiness. We want to download the perfect fit like a new app – that can be updated every time there’s a hitch, easily compartmentalised into a folder, deleted when we have no more use for it. We don’t want to unpack our baggage – or, worse, help someone unpack theirs. We want to keep the ugly behind the coverup, hide the imperfections with an Instagram filter, choose another episode on Netflix over a real conversation. We like the idea of loving someone despite their flaws; yet we keep our skeletons locked in the closet, happy to never let them see the light of day.
We feel entitled to love, like we feel entitled to full time jobs out of college. Our trophies-for-everyone youth has taught us that if we want something, we deserve it. Our over-watched Disney VHSs taught us true #love, soul mates, and happily ever after exist for everyone. And so we put in no effort, and wonder why our prince charming hasn’t appeared. We sit around, upset that our princess is no where to be found. Where is our consolation prize? We showed up, we’re here. Where’s the relationship we deserve? The true love we’ve been promised?
We want a placeholder, not a person. We want a warm body, not a partner. We want someone to sit on the couch next to us, as we aimlessly scroll through another newsfeed, open another app to distract us from our lives. We want to walk this middle line: pretending we don’t have emotions while wearing our heart on our sleeve, wanting to be needed by someone yet not wanting to need someone. We play hard to get just to test if someone will play hard enough – we don’t even fully understand it ourselves. We sit around with friends discussing the rules, but no one even knows the game we’re trying to play. Because the problem with our generation not wanting relationships is that, at the end of the day, we actually do.